Forever.

I will soon come home with my other arm forever marked.

With thanks to the lyrical inspiration of Bryce Avary.

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/users/therocketsummer/

The meaning behind this song has meant so much to me; (the entire record, "Do You Feel," has in all honesty been a huge inspiration.) However, this video, the song and the meaning behind it, is definitely eye opening to me. Bryce is a fucking genius. What a remarkable soul.

i could really go for a walk through the park, maybe a visit to the zoo to see the monkeys, giraffes and the birds.. and someone to watch a bug's life with. ;)

What we do with our time..

step, step right over me,
careful now, navigate with ease.
what it is that you want me to see;
is this something that we can appease?

dance to a dream,
where inspiration can flourish.
maybe a friendship, we can redeem,
and each other we will possibly nourish.

i wish i could brush you off as if i don't care,
but, boy you sure do have your charm.
with a half hearted smile and an eager stare,
with a companion; fitting snug inside the nook of your arm.

ironic how you cared so much before,
but i slipped up, made one small mistake.
and though that's more than what you allow for,
just one part of this game that we partake.

conversations kept short and somewhat inapt,
while we both sit here mum and learn how to deal.
i guess we know our integrity is intact,
although, we'll never know, just how we both feel.

You dismantle me.

I feel like today, might be a good day.


I feel somewhat better. :0)


"It felt so good to roll the windows down,
drive alone until we find ourselves
and we'll go back to the life we wanna lead,
then we'll go back to the way things used to be."
- "The Good Life" - Valencia

Swallowed in the sound.

If you only knew... I wish you could read my mind.. will you let me in yours?





living for someone else isn’t living at all.

Too much to think about..

I can't even think straight and it's driving me nuts.


I feel helpless!!




"There's a lot that I don't know, there's a lot that I'm still learning;
But I think I'm letting go, to find my body is still burning;
And you hold me down, and you got me living in the past;
Come on and pick me up, somebody clear the wreckage from the blast."

We felt alive...

I think I'm going to give up and stop trying... maybe it'll be easier. I'm not a weak person... but every day I seem to feel a little bit weaker. Someone inspire me, I need someone to fall back on, just as much as the next person does. :(

friendships come and go.. but i feel it might be a while before this will ever get fixed... and that is not my fault.



p.s. sometimes i don't know how to express myself... and i might be a little afraid.