You think that I can't see..

Have you ever thoug​ht about​ getti​ng your lip pierc​ed?​
I do believe I will be getting my monroe pierced soon. I'm still debating though.

Are you interested in anyone at the moment?
Most definitely so.

What did you do​ this weeke​nd?
Friday I went out with Nicole, where we got hit on by every man in Buffalo.
It was definitely creeper night, that's for sure.
Saturday I went to see Pierce The Veil and Breathe Carolina<3 with Alex!
It was so much fun. I also took him to his first Mighty Taco experience.

Are you in a good mood right​ now?
I'm trying to be in a good mood. It's just hard for me right now. I've been up and down all day.

What's bothering you right now?
Oh a mixture of things. The fact that one of my best friends is severely disappointed with me
and there isn't really anything I can do to change that, but wait for her to work it out.
Also, there is this boy who I'm trying so hard not to get caught up in but I cannot help it.
It's a bizarre situation that I'm still trying to understand. Oy.

Last thing​ you and your ex boyfriend/​girlfriend​ talke​d about​?​
We broke up in February. The last time I talked to him was in March, because he wanted me to take him back.

Last femal​e you slept in the same room with?​
Abberz!!

Do you need to say anything to someone?
I've said all I could say to one person... and it's not the time to say anything to the other.

When was the last time someo​ne yelle​d at you, and why?
I got yelled at on Friday by my mother because I didn't have all my car payment money.
This Friday I'll probably get yelled at because I don't have enough money for my car insurance.

Do you get along​ with your mom?
Yes, for the most part. My mother is one of my best friends. We have our moments,
just like the next mother and daughter duo.

What'​s somet​hing you'​d like to have right now?
I would like to talk to this boy, but I'm refraining because I do not chase.
I do not want to feel needy. I don't want him to get the wrong idea.
I would also like to cuddle with him, because he's a wonderful cuddler.
... and he smells nice. ;0)

Are you more hot or cold at the momen​t?​
Omigod am I fucking cold!

How'​s your hair today​?​
I'm actually having a good hair day. It's half back and looks cute.

Do you fall for peopl​e easily?
Sometimes. I'd be lying to myself if I said I didn't..

Does the last perso​n you held hands with, mean anything to you?
Yeah...

What shirt are you wearing?
Gray hollister open button shirt.

When was the last time you talke​d to your number 1?
(myspace) I talked to Nicole earlier today. :)

Do you think​ you'​ll be in a relationship 3 months from now?
I could be in one, however, probably not. but we'll see.

Do you know anyon​e that smokes pot?
Plenty.

What will you do after​ this survey?​
Go to bed.

Do you trust people easily?​
Not usually.

Have you ever made out again​st a car?
Yes.

Who did you last talk to for longe​r than 10 minutes on the phone?
Alex

Ever kissed a blonde haired, blue eyes person?
If you count the time Cody dyed his hair blonde. If not, then nope.

Do you get distracted easily?
Sometimes. Today, for sure.

Look at your planner. Do you have any plans for December 31st?​
I hope whatever I am doing, I have a better time than I did last year.

Who was the last baby you held?​
I was driving the shuttle at the hotel. This woman had bought a bunch of things at Walmart
and couldn't manage to carry all her bags plus her almost 2 year old son, Cameron. I asked if she
needed any help and she told me to grab her son, because now apparently my job duties entail child services.
Though he gets into EVERYTHING at the hotel, he is such a looker. He even stopped crying when I picked him up. HA!

Your thoug​hts on long distance relationships?
I feel that if both people in the relationship have trust within one another, it's possible.

How many kids do you want to have?​
I used to want 4. I don't think I want anymore than 2.

Do you have a best frien​d?
I do.

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?​
I'm definitely going through that at this very moment.

Did you date anyone last summer?
Last summer, Cody. This past summer, was my first summer in like 4 years where I was single.
(and thank god for that!)

Is there​ a guy/​girl that knows everything (or mostly everything) about you?
Ken knows a lot about me. All my girl friends know just about everything about me.

Do you belie​ve what goes around comes around?
Definitely and it's never once failed me.

Is it okay if you kiss people while you're single?
Of course.. and if not, then someone better slap me across my hands with a ruler!

What is wrong with you right now?
I'm currently in my own bubble. I'm slightly tired and have a headache. I'm anxious and I'm nervous.

Do you think​ you'​ll be married in 10 years?
It's a possibility.

Do you crack your knuckles?
Not nearly as much as I used too.

Would​ you go in public looking like you do right now?
I went everywhere today looking the way I do right now.

What was the last thing that happened that made you laugh?
Courtney, Lindsey and I watching the 1998 TRL Finale countdown earlier.

Would​ you kiss someone to make your bf/gf mad?
No, I am not a tramp.

Can you handle the truth?
I most certainly can.

Are your nails painted?
Pretty hot pink.

Do you belie​ve exes can reall​y ever be "​just friends"​?​
I believe if you really tried, it could happen.. I'm not the greatest of friends with my exes,
but I still talk to all of them except for 1.

Do you think​ you can last in a relationsh​ip for 6 months?​
I've last in a relationship for about 8 years. 6 months aint shit.

Are you too shy to tell peopl​e when you're developing feelings for them?​
Sometimes, in this case I am.

Are you enemi​es with a former friend?
Childish.

Have you ever done somet​hing outrageously dumb?

Probably that time in Montreal I turned down a one-way street. Yeah, I think that's it.

Who was the last person you yelled at?
I honestly couldn't tell you. Probably my dogs.

Who was the last perso​n you cried infront of?
My boss... although not much.. I walked away to contain myself.

Who was the last perso​n you told you loved them?​
My sister.

Who was the last person you ate with?​
Courtney.

When was the last time you felt guilt​y about something?
Yesterday.

Are you dating the very last person you kissed on the lips?
Negative.

Are you keeping a big secret right now?
I guess you can say that.

If you had a baby with the last person you textd:
That baby would be one gorgeous looking baby. Hands down.

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
Fuck no.

Do you prefer to take showers in the morning or at night?
Morning, sometimes I do take 2 showers a day though.

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
Oh my god, no.

Do you always answer your phone?
Nah.

If your ex said they hate you, you say?
He does hate me and I laugh.

What would you do if your best friend told you that they were moving?
Ashley already did. She lives in South Carolina. Abbey already did, she lives in Los Angeles.
Nicole moved to Los Angeles a couple years ago but soon later came home. So, I've dealt with it
and currently am dealing with it the only way I know how. Visits, phone conversations and AIM.

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms?
Yes, I find it calming. It's a nice feeling. :)

Are you any good at math?
Meh, I'm not horrible at it.

How did your day go yesterday?
Yesterday I had the shittiest day that I've ever had at work since I've been working at the hotel.

Was your last missed call from a boy or girl?
A girl. - Courtney.

Name something you're doing tomorrow?
Taking Courtney to work and then the doctors. Then going to work.

Do you sleep on your stomach?
Yes, mostly every night. The last 2 nights I've fallen asleep on my back.

Who was the last person that made you cry?
Leah. I feel terrible.

What are your favorite colors?
Pink, Black and Blue.

Anything you want to ask someone?
Sure.

Who was the last person that gave their number to you?
Someone who makes me giddy. :)

When was the last time you cleaned your room?
The day I came home from California.

How many letters are in your name?
7.

What are you excited about?
I'm excited for November 23rd and 24th. :)

Do you drink bottled water?
Yes. It's one of my fav. things to drink.

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
A little while ago.

Have you lost friends in the past year?
I may not speak to a couple as much as I used to (or like) but I haven't completely lost anyone.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I don't know if I have made a difference in anyone's life, but I hope that I impacted someone in some way.

Where is your phone?
On my desk, in front of me.

Something you do a lot?
Work. Talk/spend time with my friends. Travel. Go to shows. Listen to music.

Do you go to school currently?
No, but I wish I was.

Who are you expecting a call from?
Nobody.

When will your next kiss take place?
November 23rd. :0)

How are you feeling right now?
Exhausted.

When was the last time you smiled?
Today.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
Courtney. I called her cuz I set my alarm to take her to work this morning.
I set it for 5:30pm when it was supposed to be for 5:30am... sometimes I hate myself.

What did you do Saturday?
Saw a show w/ Alex.

When is the next time you'll hug someone?
Probably Thursday.

Are you afraid of roller coasters?
Fuck no, bring on the thrill!

Has anyone ever crawled through your window?
Haha, I do all the time!

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
No, Abbey is my lifeline.

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
No, I have not.

Anyone on your mind right now?
Of course.

Last person to text?
Vinny.

Last person to sleep in bed with?
Abbey.

Last thing to annoy you?
Time and distance.

Do you like carrot cake?
I most certainly do not.

Do you like anyone right now?
I do.

Do you think you will go out with him/her anytime soon?
As in date? Nope. As in out for food/to a bar? Definitely.

An open letter for my friends.. (taken from my myspace)

I would just like to acknowledge the fact that I'm sorry for my behavior as of late. It's been brought to my attention that I haven't been myself. I've felt it to an extent, but I'm not sure what is happening. I know now that I have to slow down and take a look at the bigger picture and let reality soak in. I vouched a long time ago that I would never become the person to disregard people's feelings around me and that I would always try to do things to better myself. I believe I have fallen victim of doing just that, however, quite (horribly) unintenionally. I have some dues to pay, I realize that much.

I feel terrible. I don't ever want to be the bad guy. I'm human and I make mistakes. I will continue to work towards being a better daughter, a better sister, a better worker, a BETTER FRIEND and most importantly, just a better person overall. I don't want to be the awful me. I should know better. I've had so many people walk all over me, treat me badly and walk out of my life. It's not in my blood. I was raised better than that. I always told myself I would never, ever be like that.

I know from time to time everybody is guilty with being wrapped in their own head, because I've seen it. I suppose I've been too wrapped up in my own and I haven't taken much else of the real world into consideration-- and I AM beating myself up over it. What the fuck is my deal? That's it, I'm done.

I usually put everyone else's feelings before my own. I'm usually the one everybody can count on, everybody's escape goat and the one you can confide in. I'm the one who will drop everything and be at a troubled one's side in a matter of seconds. I love to help people. I love to listen. I'm stronger than most and people come to me and count on me to be there when shit in their life isn't going so good. I don't want people to think they can no longer do that. But please understand, I too need time to focus on myself for a little while. I too, need someone to fall back on when I get weak. I am not superwoman.

All of this, I this, I that... I, I, I. I'm so sorry for anyone who has thought it's all about me lately. I'm an asshole.

There is aboslutely no reason we should be at each other's throats, ever. There is no reason for us to not be able to talk openly to one another. Sometimes we just need an extra push. But in the end, everything usually works itself out.

To my friends, you all really mean the world to me. You have all been there for me during the most difficult times of my life. I'm truly, sincerely sorry if you think I've been taking you all for granted. I know that I wouldn't have gotten to where I am today without all of your advice, your guidance, your heart and your genorosity. I feel awful that I seemed to have taken advantage of the idea you will always be there. I'm sorry for any shitty thing that I've ever done to any one of you. If you think that I'm being an asshole, please tell me. I never mean to hurt any of your feelings and though along the way, some of you have done things to me to hurt me, I know that there is no excuse for ignorance. I am forever indebted to all of you. Thank you for everything, honestly - because I probably haven't told you that enough or even lately. Thank you for making me aware of what some people have been seeing from me, that I have not. Once again, I owe you.

Love your friend,
Kristie

and the Survey Says!!!!

Kiss anyon​e latel​y?​​​
I sure did.

Whats​ your curre​nt mood?​​​
Exhausted, but in a good mood.

When was the last time you cried​?​​​
At LAX... I absolutely did not want to leave.

Are you datin​g anyon​e right​ now?
Nope.

Are you happy​ right​ now?
Yes, for the most part. :)

Ever had your heart broken?
Yes.

What was the first​ thing​ you did when you woke up this morni​ng?​​​
Got ready for work!

Who was last in the car with you?
Ashley!

Do you like to read?​​​
I do.

Are any of your frien​ds talle​r than you?
A good majority of them are.

Do you miss anyon​e?​​​
Like you have no fucking idea!!

Do you get emoti​onal easil​y?​​​
Meh, I have my days.

Can you sleep​ witho​ut blank​ets cover​ing you?
In the summer, yes.

Do you still​ talk to your most recen​t ex?
HA!!!!!!!!

Ever lost someo​ne impor​tant to you?
Yes... never a fun situation.

Marke​rs or crayo​ns or color​ed penci​ls?​​​
Crayola!!! haha

Are looks​ impor​tant?​​​
I believe that looks aren't everything, but it surely is a nice perk!

Will you be in a relat​ionsh​ip in 1 month​?​​​
That would be awesome... but I'm pushing any issues.

Do you hate when peopl​e smoke​ aroun​d you?
Kind of. I can be a real brat about it, but I won't crucify anybody for it.

Who was the last perso​n to call YOU?
Courtney.

Does the last perso​n you held hands​ with mean anyth​ing to you?
Slowly starting too.. and I'm not afraid to admit that I'm terrified.

Where are you right now?
In my bedroom, blasting SAOSIN! (yes, at 1:30am)

Have you ever felt repla​ced?​​​
A couple times, yes.

Do you sleep​ with the close​t doors​ open or close​d?​​​
Open.

Anyon​e in posse​ssion​ of your cloth​ing right​ now?
Well, Abbey borrowed my socks for dance class. I never got those back. LMFAO!

Is your best frien​d a girl or guy?
Best girlfriends: 3
Best guyfriends: 3

Who was the last perso​n to smoke​ a cigar​ette in your prese​nce?​​​
Ashley.

What are you excit​ed about​?​​​
If I told you, I'd have to kill you.


Would​ you be able to tell someo​ne you love them,​​​ even if you didn'​​​t feel it?
Honestly, no.

Do you wear your seatb​elt in the car?
ALWAYS.

What were you doing​ at midni​ght last night​?​​​
I was talking to an extremely cute boy. :)

Do you want to get marri​ed & have child​ren some day?
Yes, some day.

Would​ you date some one 20 years​ older​ than you?
never

Would​ you ever date some one 20 years​ young​er then you?
Fuck that.

Are you waiti​ng for somet​hing?​​​
Desperately.

Will you talk to someo​ne on the phone​ tonig​ht?​​​
Well, if you count texting... I'm currently talking to him. :)

Is there​ anyon​e who doesn​'​​​t like you becau​se of somet​hing you didn'​​​t do?
Probably. who gives a shit.

Have you hugge​d anyon​e in the last 72 hours​?​​​
Yes I have.

Who was the last perso​n to walk out of your life and hurt you?
Even though I was the one who walked out, Cody.. because I felt like he walked out of my life before I had even ended things.

Have you ever been searc​hed by the cops?​​​
Not that I can recall. That would make for a hilarious story though.

Do you close​ your eyes on rolle​r coast​ers?​​​
Hell nawww.

When'​​​s the last time you'​​​ve been sledd​ing?​​​
It was either the time I was with my aunt and I hit a serious bump in the hill and flew about 25 feet in the air and landed upside down with the sled on my head.... or the time I was with my (other) aunt and we went down the hill together and we hit a bump and flew off the sled and she smacked her face into mine and made my mouth bleed. LOL!

Would​ you rathe​r sleep​ with someo​ne else,​​​ or alone​?​​​
Lately, with someone else.

Do you belie​ve in ghost​s?​​​
Meh.

Do you consi​der yours​elf creat​ive?​​​
Sometimes.

Have you ever been Ice Skati​ng?​​​
Oh my god, not in so long. Someone please go with me. One of the only things I actually enjoy about winter is ice skating. :(

How often​ do you remem​ber your dream​s?​​​
A good amount of the time.

When was the last time you laugh​ed so hard you cried​?​​​
Pretty much every day that I was with Abbey last week.

Do you belie​ve in love at first​ sight​?​​​
At one time I did... but I believe now it's lust at first sight.

What do you wear to bed?
t-shirt or tank top and shorts.

Do you sing in the showe​r?​​​
Sometimes, lol.

Have you ever been punched in the face?
The bitch tried. she missed. I didn't. :)

How is your heart​ latel​y?​​
Funny question, not.

Is your dad over the age of 40?
Yes.

Do you have sibli​ngs over the age of 21?
Yes, 2. Randy - 25 Bryan - 23

Do you still​ talk to the perso​n you fell harde​st for?
Fuck no.

Are you happy​ with your life?​​​
At this moment, yes.

Will you kiss the perso​n you last kisse​d again​?​​​
I know so. Only a few more weeks. :) :) :)

Uneasy thoughts..

First, I'm going to re-type my original entry
before firefox decided to dismantle it.
Then, I'm going to post a.. survey? haha

Anywho...

I can't help but replay this past weekends events in my head.
Over and over, and over again.
For once, I am stunned.
Absolutely speechless.

I never knew that side of me even existed.
Who knew that I had it in me?
What the hell happened?
Why you?
Why me?
I'm still trying to understand it.

And the worst part of it all,
I'm not supposed to like a guy like you.

Boys.
Not one... but two? what the fuck. seriously.

(ps, those of my friends who will actually read this, will not understand this entry.
and I will not discuss the details. so let your minds wander. thanks)

California L-O-V-E

I love it here. I don't ever want to leave this place.
These last few days have been nothing but the best.

ATL/MP day 3 (round 4) this evening.
One last hoorah until Cleveland.
let's do this.